Being Different

There’s an old advertising jingle we used to sing when we were kids. It’s from some bank in South Carolina. “I’m different, and don’t care who knows it. Something about me, is not the same. Yeah. I’m different and that’s how it goes…ain’t gonna play no white sheep- games.”

That little jingle has been running through my mind today. Again, I’m reminded that we are different. Food allergies have done that to us.

We went somewhere with a group of friends and their kids. It was great- until beautifully decorated Christmas cookies were passed out to each kid. It was such a sweet gesture… unless your child has life threatening food allergies to dairy and eggs. Then it’s terrifying. Cookies in small children’s hands= crumbs. Life threatening crumbs. Am I being dramatic? No. Not at all.

Most of the kids did not eat the cookies. But there were a few scattered crumbs so I held SG in my lap protectively. There were tears in my eyes threatening to spring forth. The food was unexpected. I wasn’t prepared. But isn’t that part of life? It broke my heart when the lady offered SG a cookie, I whispered in SG’s ear, and she said, “No, thank you.” I’m so glad I had a fruit strip in my purse to give her. But it’s not the same. Not even close.

It hurts me that she is different. That she will face this most likely her entire life. That her guard (and mine) will always have to be up. It just plain stinks. But I have to remind myself she is “fearfully and wonderfully made” by the God of the Universe. The Creator of all things. He does not make mistakes. I will continue to trust Him with this most precious gift He has given us, our only child.

6 thoughts on “Being Different

  1. Aww Ellie Mae. My heart aches for you reading this post. I know it’s hard for you. It won’t be easy but you can protect her. God will lead the way. Sarah

  2. Oh Ellie! You have no idea how much I needed to hear this today. While we are a different kind of different with Ben being autistic, his days are a struggle and it is so hard to watch that as his mommy. My heart breaks for you and your girl because I get it. But as you said, this is God’s doing and he makes no mistakes. I try to remind myself of that but it is always good to hear it from someone else too. Your words have blessed me immensely!

    • Thanks for commenting Tracey. It’s so hard when our children are different, whether it’s autism or food allergies or any other reason. I pray for a cure for food allergies and for SG to outgrow them, but even if she doesn’t, then I know The Lord will get us through. It was rougher for me than her today. Hugs to you! I’ll be praying for your family.

  3. Ellie,
    I completely understand. This made me tear up because I’ve been in such situations and know the frustration, pain, fear, and sadness that moments like these encompass. Thank you for the reminder that our children are “fearfully and wonderfully made”. I don’t know how I’d survive if I didn’t have God on my side to help me manage. The Lord has special plans for our kids, and we just need to lean on Him and keep praying for strength, healing, and a cure.

    • It can be so hard sometimes, Mom Vs. Food Allergy, can’t it? I’m glad to have the understanding of other FA moms. I agree with you completely about God having a plan and the need for prayer and leaning on my faith.

      Thanks for commenting! đŸ™‚

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